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Q: A serious relationship I was in ended about 11 months ago, mainly by my own doing. We were faithful, compatible and we had open communication, but I guess you could say we didn't listen to each other 100 percent. I did what any person in love would do to try to patch things up by writing love letters, calling and the like. I guess this was too much for her, because she placed a restraining order on me. I have never harmed her in any way, shape or form. Even after this order was in place we spoke over the phone on a few occasions. She has inspired me to write a daily journal of my heartache and my lessons learned. She made me change for the better — but she doesn't believe that I have learned the error of my ways. She doesn't appear to be with anyone else. It seems that no matter what I do, I am reminded of her by her friends, my friends, actually seeing her and even talking to strangers who know of her. Am I to believe that she is so stubborn that she is afraid to go back on her original decision for fear that she may look like she gave in? I don't think it's that she hates me, because she has had opportunities to get me into trouble. She has taught me a major lesson and I feel that she is the one who should reap the benefits of the "new me." If I never hear from her, should I send her my journal for closure? It was written for her and because of her. Am I to believe that I am a hopeless romantic who believes in happy endings? There are plenty of fish in the sea, but what do you do when you found that fish and you let that fish get away?
A: If you're wise, you accept that the fish is gone and move on with your life. It's a year later. There's a restraining order out on you. Sounds like she means it. You learned a valuable lesson, but she is not about to be handing out prizes for your homework. What could be gained by her reading pages and pages of your misery journal? A lover's misery, especially an ex-lover's, would be unlikely to elicit anything but "Ugh, I'm glad that's over." If there's to be any hope for the distant future, how can she miss you if you won't go away? Isadora Alman, author of Doing It: Real People Having Really Good Sex, is a board-certified sexologist and a California-licensed marriage-and-family therapist. Contact her at email@example.com. Her Sexuality Forum is at